A Picture Share!

I am at the greyhound station and what do i see? A bootleg coach bag in the arcade prize game. All i can do is shake my head...
Damn shame....

i described it to my friend. she agrees. i knew i wasnt losing my damn mind. *smh*


bracing myself.

all my ladies pop your thang like this....

*takes notes.....

trapped in the krimson and kreme closet

From: Kappa Alpha Psi GSU
Sent: Thursday, July 28, 2005 11:15 AM
To: Kappa Alpha Psi GSU
Subject: NOT A KAPPA FUNCTION


Nupes,

I hope all of you are enjoying the summer. We were recently informed that there is a flyer going around stating it is a Kappa Koming out party (some type of same sex party). This party is NOT and I state is NOT affiliated with Kappa Alpha Psi at ALL. One of the fraternities of the Divine 9 put the flyer together and started circulating the flyer To destroy "the pretty boy klub", but they don't know under pressure we excel.

Please inform other Nupes and Nationals is already aware of the matter and will handle it accordingly.

See Attachment for the fake flyer

Y.I.T.B

the sims are trapped in the closet

lawd take me now. the beginning of part 3 i the funniest. geez oh man. this made my whole day bright.

part one

part two

part three

part four

frustration

its way too damn soon for this. i dont have time. no one said it would be easy but i thought i'd at least get 6 months grace. i feel like i am failing to be able to do something other women would be able to do. is there something wrong with me? yes i think its definitly me. why do i have to be this way?



why am i not more agreeable? throughout life my best efforts never are enough for me to hit my goals. i do set high goals but damn, must i always fall short?

nudist

its official. i dont like clothes. i walk around barefoot. i sleep as naked as possible, usually a t-shirt and that's it. i dont dress naked but best beleive i usually have as much out as i can lol. that means a lot of leg or a lot of cleavage. i dont know why i dont like clothes i just dont. so you think i'm secure with my body. hell to the naw... i'm not. not by far. if someone sees me naked, in all my glorius imperfection, allowed to see my every mark, scar, bruise, bump and birthmarks then i really trust them. amazing thing. adam and eve forced us to live a life of shame.could you imagine being allowed to walk around in this heat butt ass naked (shoes of course because hoodlums and chickens like to spit)? it would be great. can you imagine? no tan lines? yes. and best of all. all these massive chicks that complain about their weight but they eat 5 big macs would be more inclined to lose at least 3 of their 5 stomachs. yeah nudity is fun. as much as i dont like others to see my body. i like to look at others. aint nothing like fully observing the body of someone you love. their every curve and line. the smoothness and roughness of their skin. down to their bruises and scars. i love it... i'm a very visual person. the best thing to me though, the most naked part of your body is.. the eyes. you get everything through the eyes and if i look you in your eyes i want to see all of you and for you to see all of me. interesting huh? i bet you thought i was going to say something nasty? nah... i'm a pretty good girl (i talk a lot of shit though). i wear a halo at all times *har har*

fall anthem

I heard that you were talking shit
And you didn't think that I would hear it
People hear you talking like that, getting everybody fired up
So I'm ready to attack, gonna take you out
That's right, put your pom-poms downs, getting everybody fired
up

conceited

how conceited do you have to be to have a watch in your likeness made for $1 million for your GIRLFRIEND TO WEAR. hey kriss.. where's mine?

me and my boo get mur-ried

okay here's what you've been waiting for. me and my boo got murried this weekend.






you aint ready.........


















we look real good...........












































here's pookie walking me down the isle. i ain't have no daddy around when i was growing up. that's why i'm hood and don't give a f--k. aint i purty?


its all me and my boo now....


i do take this here man to take curr of me and my babies. i promise to love, to hold, through sickness and health, to take curr of his kids and not stab his baby momma as long as we both shall live.


with this ring (thats where the budget for the wedding went) i thee wed.




i have officially been upgraded from "free milk" to bought cow after 27 years.


RECEPTION TIME

delmonicatico's daddy at the grill


ray ray and man man


cousin mary mae and her daughter va'gina


family picture. me, uncle june and my new husband


wedding party


me and uncle june


the men of the family


you aint gotta leave but you gotta get the hell out of here. honeymoon time.

racings thoughts... numbing of the body

i have a numbness trickling through my body. i was so warm and then it was as though a drop of ice water hit my body and chilled me through and through. only a drop, a little inkling, a little thing that should be nothing has caused me to freeze.. and think.

perfection is never attained. ever, no matter how hard you try there is never perfection. if you ever feel something is perfect, look again and look hard because there is something you are overlooking. something that you need to see to let you know its not as perfect as it seems. where is it? i dont want to think its been found but i think it has.

the constrast of two thoughts that one has clearly defined to be seperate only implies that one wishes them to be seperate in but in actuality they are not. in subconciously contrasting things one tends to lean toward, becomes partial toward, the more comfortable: in what they know. they do not see the the full picture with the comfort. what gives comfort in this situation? i dont know. in my case i let what comforted me most go. i dove into the blackness, with no safety blanket, and just learned to face it. it turned out well. i did what i had to do as i was always told nothing good would result until i did this. but is this everyone's technique? i think not. i am learning not to advise my technique because people dont see it. my LS cant see it and i can see her following the path i walked for 4 years. others dont see it. i want to keep my words to myself now. i think i will. i feel so dumb and helpless right now. my pessimistic mind that is oh so beautiful at times is definitly getting the best of me. can i help it if i see it? i have walked the path. its like watching a car wreck before it happens. you know whats going to happen but you cant stop it. weak....

okay this blog might be pure gibberish to many of you. if i were on xanga it would be made private but i'll just put it out there because it needs to be released and because i am so secretive about certain things i cant really talk about it to anyone.

the greek blog

i wonder what our respective founders are thinking....



why do you only have on a neck tie and a skirt?






sometimes greeks push the limits of what i like to call COMMON SENSE. *rolls eyes* if you're going to diss you had better be on point from HEAD TO THE TIP OF YOUR TOE!!!!!!

damn. people always trying to taint you. if there was ever a case of knowing more than you wanted to know this is one. i dont need to know what folks look like or how they act. leave me alone.

paranoia

i have found something so sweet, so comforting.
its too good to be true.... so good that i think it isnt true.
sadly i am waiting for my fears to be realized.
and for me to find out in the typically cruel manner.
i already see where its going to come from.... at least i wont be sideswiped.



i hope i am being paranoid.

wonderful

back from a wonderful trip, with a wonderful (asshole) man, to a wonderful park which wonderfully wore me out and now i am getting some wonderful rest before i start the wonderful harry potter book my wonderful secret got me while i wait for him to end the second half of his 7 hour trip.

ummm... my mans kriss the antigreek (he aint in no org. hehehe) got some tips for those of you all who are greek. i aint greek either so i cant relate and things. but i had to post this because its funny stuff.
10 ways to have a sucessful probate (not that kriss would know about probating or anything)




btw: i hate to do this to the kappa dropout but i must commend kanye on his video "diamonds from sierra leone".

ohhhhhh... it aint my fault

so. i used to have a cute sprint phone. a red sanyo pm-8200 from sprint. when i got it (last summer) no one had it and i was cool. it had a camera and squakie (walkie talkie). fast forward to december... all the hoodrats got my phone in my color but i am not too superficial so i didnt care. all of a sudden i wanted a video phone, a phone with an mp3 player, the whole kit and kaboodle. dont know why, i just did but i remembered i am poor and i have better things to do with my money. so i pushed that to the back of my mind.

my phone's buttons stopped working and the hinge broke so i call sprint to get a new one. it wasnt a neccesity but i was tired of that hood ass red shit. so my phone comes to day and i look. it looks like my old one but i notice the buttons are a little different. i think sprint has jipped me. they said a refurbished phone of the same quality i was supposed to get. well my darlings i bring my two phones to the sprint store to switch numbers over... turns out i got this hot new phone, that just came out the MM-8300. this mess has the whole kit and kaboodle (except the mp3 player but why do i need that?). it will even play a video when someone calls (secret get ready!!!). i bring it in the store and the employees are trying to figure it out and they even start scheming on how to get one too. yes ladies and gents i lucked out. it seems luck has been on my side lately. i think i got a lucky charm.....

wishing for the leatherbound collector's edition of harry potter and the chamber of secrets

my hair

cold blooded bitch

i am on myspace because my dear LS, my number 10, my tail, my spring tide: dearest amber asked me to. okay most mofos on there are on there to get complements. amber and her man, both model types, are the kinds of people that should be on there. so anyway, i'm no damn slouch. i am pretty, i got a couple pics up, you know same old pics i show all my friends. lately i've been getting random messages from guys with their number. before my secret became official i asked him to call one but he said to wait and he's have other folks do it. okay well it seems i got an admirer. this negro has sent me 3 notes asking for my number or straight giving it to me. okay so i think its going to be funny, in my boredom, to put his ass out there. (click to enlarge)

i look good so dont hate. i only got one chain and its taken. hollaback.

jealousy aint cute.... step your game up

hehehehe

it's a secret (postsecret.blogspot.com)

Its so amazing/how something so sweet/
Has come and rearranged my life/
I've been kissed by destiny /
Heaven came and saved me/
An angel/was placed at my feet/
This isn't ordinary/He's loving me for me/

sunday

today is the first time in a long time that i was ever reminded of how my sundays used to be. me chilling out in my room, preparing for monday. i opted to chill out instead of going to the movies with an old friend and i am glad. this has been a good summer and its just whetting my appetite for the inevitably good fall semester. i dont expect too much drama and my last few lingering issues that i have left from HIM are fading. he's really a memory now, not a reality. if you would have asked me about it this time last year i would have said i would know him forever but now i see how stupid you can be when you still have feelings for someone... even if they aren't claiming your ass. lol. he's happy now i am sure. easy days, quick (and lots of) money and all the model chicks in the world. i'm very happy myself. i am grateful for what i have been given. all the second chances i have gotten. God is smiling on me right now. i have said this before and everytime it gets increasingly better. i am in a good spot right now for a couple reasons. i am excited about planning this party for my LS. i'm excited about another trip this weekend. i'm excited about my last year in school. i am excited about looking for jobs and the possibility of starting my adult life AND MOVING!!!!!!! all i can go is be grateful on this sunday for all the blessings i have been given.

great is your mercy towards me
your loving kindness towards me
your tender mercies i see
DAY AFTER DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever faithful towards me
you're ALWAYS providing for me
great is your mercies towards me
GREAT IS YOUR GRACE!!!!!!!!!

no daddy.

teairra mari. to quote jay-z: "the rocs newest acquistition". a 17 year old hailing from detroit i beleive. you might be familiar with her first song, which i must admit was a little catchy to me. until i heard the unedited version and realized this fast ass 17 year old is talking about a where's a "nigga that can put it on me"... okay i understand jay is trying to find the new beyonce with his "acquistions" rihannna (on def jam) and teairra. rihanna's song "pon de replay" is cool. she seems her 16 year old self until she twurks it a little for the camera but then i remembered she's west indian and they tend to be very sexual in their dances. so she is excused because in every other way she's in her age niche. teairra however has this new song slated for release as the next single: no daddy. its off her album that legally she cant buy herself because it has a parental advisory. goes a little something like this:

i aint had no daddy around when i was growing up
thats why i'm wild and ion give a (edited out "fuck")
y'all think cause these *something* that i'll give it up
dont let my cute face fool ya.

she goes on to sing about how its not really her that's tricking in the club but her friends but she can relate to it because they all been through "hell" and how no one else will look out. not giving a "fuck about rules" and doing what you gotta do? who is controlling this girl's image? its not okay for anyone to trick. okay teairra we will give you some props from not giving up sex to get some money from drug dealers but why make a song basically pumping up these little girls to live this life? why not be like cierra who talks about NOT getting her goodies? she's definitly going to appeal to someone but you see how far fantasia's "baby momma" song got her. quit cheering on single mothers, strippers, and prostitutes. why is it okay to do what you gotta do? its like these people dont know they can have a hope at a future. its all about get rich quick. i am glad i was chubby and guys didnt pay me attention. i wonder if i could would i have ended up like that? i doubt it but the thought of me being a disrespected young chicken is straight scary. sorry teairra you cant fill beyonce's niche. she might be sexy "sasha" on stage but she is not talking about being a hoe for some money. she might want a soldier but her soldier is quick to "scoop up his beyonce" and claim her. her dad didnt let her go down that road and jay needs to realize the women he likes are more classy than common hood chickens.

the pied pisser

ladies and gentlmen... and especially you boys and girls. r. kelly and his hood miniseries have debuted at number one on the billboard with 500,000 sold. he went gold in his first week, his best debut ever. okay maybe you all weren't listening when i was but this grown ass man's career has been punctuated with young girls. there are always rumors of him picking up high school students but the concrete proof is when he runs off to marry a then 15 year old aaliyah who is 18 years his junior while recording her album "age aint nothing but a number". they never spoke of it but vibe posted the marrage certificated with the tampered with ages. rumor has it she has always been fast, i dont know how true it is but the girl had just turned 15. hey... if they were married they probably had sex before hand so use your imagination. here it is 2005, they have r kelly on sex with two other young girls and a slew of pictures found in florida. here's where the debaucle comes in. the florida charges are dropped. why? because they illegally searched his trailer. they keep pushing the chicago case back. the pedophile is allowed to run around and TELL YOU HE WILL TAKE YOUR KIDS AWAY. that's right he named himself after the pied piper of hamlin for a little while and even wore a mask. black folks ate that mess alive. he puts out some old people song for the chicago steppers and he gets the old folk behind him. black folks are the only race of people that proudly proclaim "i dont care what he does in his personal life if it benefits me". what the hell? people he is helping to corrupt our youth. he's having sex with young girls, probably taking them to mcdonalds and making them into young golddiggers. and we all see how used up golddiggers end up: "confessions of a video vixen" by karinne stevens anyone? that bitch probably has a hit out for her right now. black people have been conditioned to support our own at all costs. i am sorry i dont take that as gospel. its just not true. we've basically told the pied pisser to keep having sex with our young girls and then blame it on the impressionable child. hey its all the woman's fault anyway. the little girl had no business being a fast ass right? sometimes WE make me sick.

A Picture Share!

My secret gave(loaned) me the coveted google shirt noir. Aint he special? Hes wearing my chain so back up bitches

red and white? red and gold?

okay lemme preface this by saying i dont fall into stereotypes. i love all my fellow greek sororities but i was having this fun little conversation with the secret and i needed to post it. so without further ado:


SweetLea81: why all deltas gotta be divas?
SweetLea81: dont they know that "diva" is the new word fat chicks are abusing?
SweetLea81: thick is so 5 min ago
my secret: lol
SweetLea81: they all divalicous, divastation, dstdivas, diva diva diva
SweetLea81: every line got a "diva something"
SweetLea81: wack
SweetLea81: elegant like elephants is becoming more and more fitting
SweetLea81: damn i need to blog this
SweetLea81: LOL
my secret: do it


if you got a problem holla at me on IM. i'll pull the stick out your ass for you. it's all in fun dahlings.

i just wanna say i have never been so happy to lose a bet as i am now.

i want to try something new. you all dont leave comments but i know you are visiting. so please.....

AIM OR YIM ME: SWEETLEA81

i wanna know what you think. it can be anonymous.

Why is it that people think no clothes=cool? Doesnt your skin burn when sitting in the sun? Mine does and so you might see me wear a jacket

the sweetest thing: chocolate and caramel

The sweetest thing I've ever known
Was like the kiss on the collarbone
Soft caress of happiness
The way you walk, your style of dress
I wish I didn't get so weak
Baby just to hear you speak
Makes me argue just to see
How much you're in love with me
See, like a queen, a queen upon her throne

It was the sweetest thing I know
It was the sweetest thing I know

I get mad when you walk away
So I tell you leave, when I mean stay
Warm as the sun dipped in black

Fingertips on the small of my back
More valuable than all I own
Like your precious, precious, precious, precious dark skin tone

It was the...Ah
I tried to explain
Ah...but baby, it's in vain

Speaking on my mother's phone
The touching makes me think I'm grown
Sweet prince of the ghetto (not really)
Your kisses taste like armaretto
Intoxicating, oh, so intoxicating
How sad, how sad that all things come to an end
But then again, I'm not alone

cyber sex II

my secret: yo ma can i boot you up?
my secret: lemme defragment your hard drive
me: yeah i got lots of contiguous files


we are sooooooooooooooo damn nerdy. thats me and my secret. thats all y'all get of the best damn weekend period.

i'm
really
happy

and thats the closest i will get to spilling something personal like that on here. i know i got stalkers trying to figure the mess out. just know this is turning out to be a great summer...

thanks to my little secret.

cyber sex nerd style

my secret: i love it when you talk algorithms to me baby
SweetLea81:i love when you defragment my hard drive
my secret: i love it when you boot up my pc

thats what happens when a programmer and a mathematician hook up. lol

proud to be an american

doesnt the united states sometimes remind you of that chick you used to date that always made everything about her?
"baby i had a bad day. i failed my exam i wont get into grad school"
"oh really? that sucks. damn baby the tip came off my nail, now i gotta pay for a fill in and a new nail"
"but baby my life is ruined"
"bump your life, my manicure is ruined"

so i am sure everyone viewing this has heard about the terror attacks in london. there are many things about this i want to address.

first thing. why do the news reports all of sudden switch from this having to do with iraq to having to do with the g 8 summit? okay why would the terrorists care if we want to end world hunger and global warming? they want us to get the fuck out of their world and to mind our meddling business. who is the us's largest supporter of the war in iraq? great britain under prime minister tony blair's regime. doesnt this make sense. it's not about the olympics being in britain 7 years from now. its not about the g8 summit. if it were dont you think they would have blown up the damn concert in london? please note that prime minister blair is dubya's more attractive twin with a brit accent. did you see his address after the attacks? he was at a loss for words. God forbid he has to give an impromptu speech. he and dubya need to go study some hitler tapes to see how you boost morale and rally the troops. without their speech writers they get this super blank look on their face and watching gw in the background looking all chimpy and befuddled made it even more humorous.

second off: why are they trying to make us beleive these attacks had no warning signs, no messages or anything to alert anyone? BS those attacks were as synchronized as an olympic level swimming team.

okay so now back to my example. the us is the selfish, cocky, conceited, self centered girlfriend all you men have had in your life (ladies if your man is like that please take some time and go read living down low by mr jl king.) every time something happens she brings it back to herself. right now i am listening to the department of homeland defense drivel on about they're going to increase the rainbow of terror to tangerine level BUT ONLY FOR MASS TRANSPORTATION SECTORS. that's right ladies and gents. the terrorists are gonna bomb our one level buses and subways. lets think for a minute. if it was about the US, dont you think they'd have bombed some new york subways? that woulda sent the point right home. if i am going to hurt you on the sly i am not going to do it in the way i did i before because i am expecting you to be guarding yourself in anticipation of that move. see why the whole world loves us?

okay and finally this is to dear sweet pittsburgh. pittsburgh you no longer are the steel capital of the world. you no longer are a mass transportation hub. you are not in the top 10 hot spots of terrorism. so why then are the news channels here interviewing our port authority about how we prevent terrorism here? that's more idiotic than the US beleieving we'll be attacked.. today.. on our buses and subways. we live in pittsburgh not the district of columbia. just because a plane missed downtown pittsburgh by 2 minutes on september 11 doesnt mean they are targeting us. that wasnt on purpose folks. the beemer man single handedly took that plane down in an act of noblity... "LET'S ROLL!!!" they are about to close down the military bases here. they dont want none of pittsburgh.

in closing i would like to say that when the attack does go down i wont be surprised. we miss all the real warning signs while we fiddle faddle with our rainbow colored alert system and "to little to late" terror notifications. i'm high tailing my ass to canda in about 8 years.

quick weaves have infitrated the world

do you all know what a quick weave is? its a bamma ass hair style where they mold your hair down and then glue tracks right on to it. usually.... okay ALL THE TIME it looks like a hideous wig. chicken ass broads seem to love it though. they even get all fancy with the colors and twists and stuff. at first i only saw it in alabama, florida, and mississippi: bamma ass places. oh yeah and i saw it in what i like to call alabama in pennsylvania: pittsburgh. all chicks got these crappy pieces here. you aint keeping yourself up if you just wear a wrap (like i do). you gotta have dragon tips on your fingers AND TOES, and the quick weave to go with your rocawear outfit that is super tight and shows off your ass crack and rolls. still dont know what a quick weave is?

exhibit a: this bitch is being patriotic and its wrong on so many levels

now playing....

We got the afternoon
You got this room for two
One thing I've left to do
Discover me
Discovering you

One mile to every inch of
Your skin like hot cocoa
One pair of chocolate lips and
Your bubblegum tongue

And if you want love
We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while

Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder
(I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland

Something 'bout the way your hair
falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling
towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it

You want love?
We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder
(I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland

Damn baby
You frustrate me
I know you're mine all mine all mine
But you look so good it hurts sometimes Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder
(I'll use my hands)
Your body is a wonderland
Your body Is a wonderland



LYRICS BY JOHN MAYER.... NOW CLOSE YOUR MOUTHS

what the hell was she thinking

i am about to go to work but here's something to enjoy while i am gone:



notice the stomach area if you will. that is most def paint. what the hell what this broad thinking? if you dont got it dont flaunt it. you dont HAVE to show your stomach at the age of 35.

my secret in e flat interpolated

You keep me on my feet happily excited
By your cologne, your hands, your smile, your intelligence
You woo me, you court me, you tease me, you please me
You school me, give me some things to think about
Invite me, you ignite me, you co-write me, you love me (eventually), you like me
You're different and special; you're different and special
In every way imaginable
You love me from my hair follicles to my toenails
You got me feeling like the breeze, easy and free and lovely and new
When you touch me I just can't control it
When you touch me, I just can't hold it
The emotion inside of me, I can feel it

back then they didnt want me... now look they ALL ON ME.