the morning after

ever woke up and just regretted every little thing you said the night before? well dammit, i can be a mean bitch sometimes. i didnt even know for real until i thought about it. if i get mad enough i will be mean. i regret those mean things sometimes they are not even true. they are just born out of contempt for situations. LOL my head hurts and my stomach is turning.



i wish i could take the bad things back because some other things i said were some of the most honest and true things ever.i would never have said them otherwise.i am glad they are out there and its known. it would be a shame for me to waste those thoughts by not being spoken. while i will never utter them again... i know i wont have another chance to i am happy they are out. as weird as the evening was i am so happy i said what i had to say and even for a second feel what i wanted to feel: really safe and secure.