betterment of the self

i decided for this month i would educate myself on the history of many people, not just "african americans" (i have qualms with this term but i'll save that for my essay on race, ethnicity, ancetry and nationality and the semantics of it all). so i begin the month in the carnegie library begining the book "mein kampf". an all black book with red letters titling it and below in simple white the author's name: adolf hitler. i know, i know i wrote that super dramatic. LOL. anyway, this book is super thick but i think that i can digest it in the little free time i actually have just like i do my harry potter books. mein kampf aint got nothing on "goblet of fire". i really dont know where i want to go to next. my sorority is showing "daughters of the dust". its a movie i liked as a child and i didnt really know what i was watching. its amazing how few black americans even know about gullah gullah island unless they happened to catch the nickelodion show. i am looking for suggestions about what controversial books i will read next although i think i want to delve deepers into african history because i think that my parents sacraficed my education of my lineage for a better education in an predominantly white elementary school. that's why i am grown and here to educate myself. i also am interested in learning about honduras, the nigerian people who settled there apparently (a honduran told me this after i told her that i secretly lust after nigerian men and that my brother has features consistent with some of the tribes), the mezito culture and other things. i am tired of being dumb about the things that flow within me. so instead of using my energy entertaning petty things and wishnig for a secret valentine i am going to make myself even more knowledgeable (if that is even possible, anyone who knows me knows that i have a billion useless facts). basically, i was already in hiding, getting my WWCD on and now unless i like you or you have conversation for me to partake in i probably wont be seeing me. deeper into the realm of introvertedness i delve.

p.s. contact me in some way and give me some suggestions. i take anonymous ones too!!! :o)