magnetism

i dont want to speak in certain scientific terms. i want to talk about a feeling.
i am drawn to visual things, things that make me dream, things that make me think, things that make me feel passion.

being drawn to something is definitly something interesting. its sometimes very sudden. out of no where. where does it come from? i wish it could be turned off because sometimes its unwanted.

right now i kind of have an unwanted draw. not unwanted because it is bad but unwanted because its out of left field and so ODD. of all things to be drawn to. so i am going to make my own attempt to intervein in the feeling. so it can go away. if it doesnt what will i do? i am not used to this. i am usually so calculating and know exactly what i want and DONT WANT and let things run their course because i know i have some control. however....


it slips away: because of words.

i will go to sleep now but somehow i fear i am going to have dreams tonight, which i never do and sometimes they scare me.